Day 1: 

I came this night. This first night. A couple hours after posting my promise to this challenge. I came 6, maybe 7 times. Each was satisfying, the later ones shaking through my bones.  

But it didn't feel like I was doing it for myself, it felt like I was doing it for this. Coming for a blog - for a reading. Having an orgasm for someone else (to read about) is a strange realization, isn't it. I wasn't with anyone, it wasn't intimate or transcendent. Yes, I came like a champ but for what...  ? 

Does it matter? 

Day 2: 

I didn't have an orgasm today, at least not as you imagine it - hands or toys on genitals - but rather experienced a deep physical release far from my cunt, on the opposite end of my body, in fact.  

I have been wrought with anxiety and exhaustion; a bit of fear mixed with a wild uncertainty. Longing for something not present and unsure of the future.  

I had a shot of tequila at the end of the day and it made me drunk off my ass for 20 min and then knocked me out hard. I was immediately hungover and when I got home I cried. I cried and cried and cried for about 15 soaking wet minutes. When it was finished I was replenished. Clearly my release yesterday needed to come from my eyeballs and not my cunt.  

I'm feeling horny today though so I think for Day 3 I'll come down there, ifyouknowwhatimean. You know! 


*FAMILY DISCLAIMER: if we're related and don't want to read about my sex life, stop now. Go back... Read the section marked BLOG. 

This afternoon a beautiful friend of mine sent me an email with an article about something called the 30 Days of Orgasms Challenge. This wasn't about having sex with as many people as possible (though, if that's what you wanna do, go for it) but rather it's about connect and reconnecting with your body and the incredible healing and spiritual power that an orgasm can bring. The article mentions that some women undertook it to discover new ways of pleasing themselves or playing with new toys or seeing if they could come in a way they never had before. 

For me the thing about the article that resonated most profoundly was about reconnecting. I'm a sexual person, always have been; I've been masturbating since I was quite young and aware that what I was doing was pleasurable from the time I was 9 or 10 years old. I masturbate... a lot. I even made a little movie with that exact same title. But lately orgasms have become prefunctory... A way to fall asleep. I haven't been connected to my desire for a while now and when I have come and it's been that deeply moving experience it's been with another person. WHICH IS GREAT, of course! But I need to reconnect to that desire within myself; that spiritual and inborn connection I have with pleasure and with providing pleasure to myself. 

Our bodies are miraculous in their capacity for pleasure and I am going to remind myself of that for 30 days. I will have more than 30 orgasms over the next 30 days but I will connect daily with my body and see what comes of it. I am hoping to unlock some creativity that seems a bit blocked, come hard and often and remind myself that I really fucking like myself. 

I will check in here and post articles I like about masturbation, pussies and cocks, sex toys and pleasure all in the spirit of this beautiful challenge. Wanna join me? Wanna write about it? I can help facilitate some anonymity if you want. Got a penis or an asshole or nipples or whatever and want to participate... That's cool too. Join! PLEASURE FOR ALL! This isn't just for those of us who call ourselves female or have a pussy. Pleasure is for all humans. 

As I snuggle down for tonight's session I will leave you with the article that started it all. Read THE UNDENIABLE BENEFITS OF ORGASM — REVISITING THE #30DAYORGASMCHALLENGE: SEXUAL HEALING and have some fun!